Wrapping it up
Cleaned out the classroom today. The children left with their stack of kid-produced comics. Sure to be collector's items when they all become famous. It was bittersweet. Next week, Muttonham, boys and zines. I"m looking forward to it.
During my lunch I toddled over the library and instead of reading GQ (as I did yesterday... mostly because it advertised a short story by David Sedaris) I picked up the current copy of the SJ Metro. The title grabbed my attention-- Man Jose. It was about how there are lots of bachelors in SJ and they interviewed a bunch of desperate men and singles' experts. It thoroughly depressed me until I realized that I was feeling sorry for myself for completely ridiculous reasons. I felt like I hadn't dated in ages. Au contraire said my inner accountant...
5 "dates" *
2 of them were christian (one was dating someone else and the other one moved)
of the remaining 3, 2 were long distance (among other things that made the relationship impossible) and 1 is moving to Boston in a few weeks.
I have no idea whether or not these numbers are high or low (though I sense a disturbing trend-- what is it about me that inspires men to leave the state/country? If I were to make the period of time longer, the numbers of men who left the state after dating me would go up proportionately). Am I dating too much? Too little? Am I acting like a whore or a prim church virgin? Should I be trying to date more?
The article stressed that to be a successful male in SJ, it helped to be older, and for the women, it helped to be younger. The ideal age they mentioned was 25. Doh! Though, ironically, when I was 25 I was dating a SJ man. Does that count?
I am dating, so why am I still practically single? The numbers are saying that men do date me. But what, I wonder, is lacking? Do I just have to keep dating? Shall I continue spinning the proverbial chamber? When I pull the trigger, will anything happen? Is it time for another craigslist ad? (oooh, I think so) Should I reread The Rules?
Does dating really have anything to do with a long term relationship? I am looking at the numbers, and they aren't saying anything at all. I really do have to laugh. I got another spam from eharmony. I checked my account,
0 matches. Argh. They haven't matched me with anyone in
6 mos. I think that means I am unmatcheable. I feel like a date-gypsy.
* the way I am defining date is any outing where the man pays for the food and exhibits some sort of "interest."